*This is the last Love poem I write FOR you.....*

This will be the last love poem i write for you....until i feel like i am loved in return

i cant keep writing the words and keeping my receit because i know that everything i say with my heart will have to be returned....

You always break it..

and i cheat myself into thinking that it came that way, and blame the one that made it for its poor condition...

Lord, I'm sorry.

And my maker says you must forgive others, in order to be forgiven, so i forgive you

however life is about choices too, so in short, i release you...

But before i go i just want you to know that i really loved you, i still do, and always will...

i loved you more than you'll ever know. And im not going to spend a whole lot of time speaking of how much because i know that you already know.

But i cant keep loving someone who doesnt love me the same way in return anymore..

My life is based on the premise of promoting equality, so to be in an offbalanced relationship emotionally like this just isnt fair, to me or what i've been fighting for...

im taking back the little girl in me, that still deserves to be treated like a princess...

the girl that never knew hurt before, and who never questioned the notion of whether or not i was priceless....

I'm going to go back and find my dreams, that you will never helped come true...

because i wanted things for my life too, but you always just thought about you....

i cant let you convince me that i deserve the way you treat me,

because no matter what happened, i loved you unconditionally...

when all you did was give up on me...

like i said, i love you like a new day, and by saying new, that means all over again

but you loved me like yesterday....something that in whatever moment you're in, doesn't exist anymore...

so what am i fighting for?

i cant keep being with someone who in creating the plans of their life, not having my name being the first thing they mention...

not to say that i'm all they want out of life, but that anything that you would want wouldn't be worth having without me in it.

i figure my life out with you like we both found God's treasure map to happiness, like we'd each been carrying one half of it our whole lives, and now the picture only makes sense when we're together...

But you look at it like you had the key to happiness in this life, and i was just a person along your journey to give you the missing piece, and now you've got what YOU needed, and you'll be on your way...

you dont need me anymore....

and in the process of you viewing the past year and a half that way, you've robbed my of everything i've gained my whole life...

took my best from me, and felt like you owed me nothing...

you have the audacity to tell me you'd be better off without me...

when before me you couldn't even make sense of what life means...

you feel like its not your job to make me happy...

leave me to create everything from within myself....

and i thought that you must like to see me cry, but thats not true,

you're just only concerned with seeing your smile, looking out for you...

And people like you are the ones Ive grown to dislike the most,

those who live on borrowed time....

always thinking what you do doesn't matter, because all you got is time...

tomorrow is not promised, and you take for granted today, assuming that tomorrow is going to come, and i feel sorry for you...

sorry that you blame me for you actions when you yourself say that you cant change people, they have to change themselves.

and since you give me no credit for the good in your life, dont give me credit for all the bad that's become of you,

because i dont even know you...

I gave you the best of me...

placed you on the mountain top for you to lay me at your feet...

thought about you all day, for you to come home past three

trusted you enough to let you have me naturally

for you to not even kiss me, and when i cry fall fast asleep

i loved you with the God in me,

and you turned my testimony against me...

pretendin like i hurt you as an excuse for you to keep hurting me

i made you a king,

prayed for your dreams...

and like the giving tree i became a stump just so you have everything,

that made you happy.

only to find out that my happiness was never your prority

or of your concern...

Because that required you putting someone else before you...

something you never do...

you give the least amount of effort required that you know i'll hold on to long enough for you make a few more plans for a life without me

and ill keep believing that you'll come back around, as i carry your weak efforts as a sign that my dreams will come true...

i want to experience joy in my life, something unobtainable without bringing joy to others..

and if thats something you hope to find in your life, good luck finding it with the mentality you have now....

you live a life only focused on you
when you got someone that truly loves you...
you think you're so divine that you must have two people created just for you...
and someone else out there will miss out on their loved one, for your own mishaps,
and if u believe that, i can promise that thought will not come true...
i am a blessing in more ways that I even know....
and u treat me as though something thats one of a kind is replaceable...
and after all ive giving you, i was never enough....
when all i ever wanted from you was the respect, honesty, and adornment that comes with true love.....
see everyday, you could've always been enough...
ands it not that you aren't, or that you weren't,
its just that you chose not to be...
u didnt want to be my everything, which when you are faced with the truth about you, you'll find had never been so easy...
and i just want you to know that i never stopped loving my first,
because he was my first, and had me before you...
so since Jesus set a pretty high standard,
i cant keep settling for you...
all you had to do was try,
but the results of your efforts should not equal me crying...
i pray that you'll go back to your first love,
so we can be a three again..
but until then,
ill just be checking the mail for the love i sent to you a long time ago, to read..."My love to be returned to sendHER....