When I tell any truth it is not for the sake of convincing those who do not know it, but for the sake of defending those who do....
-Wm. Blake








"A Bird doesn't sing because it has an answer, it sings
Because it has a Song...." ~ Maya Angelou

Sunday, June 15, 2008

* I'm Lost....*

So here I am again. Lost. And I'm stopping at the same place I always do,to ask for directions...
tired of driving on this road second guessin'
And did I mention, that I'm now running barefoot, cuz i totaled my car a long time ago.
I been forcing my "special hand-crafted legs"to go in directions they weren't programed to go....
not without my wings,
and even for the most part, they were made to simply stand,
the definition of "a giving tree"is all that I am....
But needless to say, I'm running.
To the same lantern in the darkess where i found my light the last time i lost my way.
and the man who's always there, always knows what to say
i say "I'm lost, i dont know what to do"
He says " well,my child,tell me what happened to you"
"Well," i say,"I was on the path, that you once lead, and i remembered the directions that you once said, and i was doing fine. And then i saw this wonderful man who was broke down on the side of the road.
he looked so kind, and i knew had to be going somewhere important, if i'd meet him on my path, and he was carrying a heavy load.
So i stopped to help him,when know one else would. I told him he could ride with me, it was okay to leave his broken car behind, that sometimes change is good.
So we traveled together for what seemed like forever, seemed he'dbeen with me for my whole life time.
And he showed me this painting in the sky, and taught me that paradise is a State of Mind. Together we saw the most beautiful scenary either one of us had ever seen.
His company meant more to me,than the sweetest dream.
And then one day he got side tracked, and said he was tired of being just a passenger.
I said dont you know that we're in this together?
He said that he was the man, he has dreams to achieve.
Said he needed to get a new car for him, and I said, well what about me?
he said, oh, you can come too, there's no me without you, just followmy lead.
So I did, but he just drove so fast,
always making quick turns, not even stopping for gas*.
Somehow i got so caught up in following him, trusting him and always wanting to support his dreams, that i forgot the directions you had given, just as he was forgetting me.
So i keep calling him, expressing my frustration, but he just got angry with me, saying I was messing up his concentration.
So I drove with narrow vision, to keep up with him,
because i thought, if he breaks down again, who's going to stop and help him?
But he never slowed down to wait for me, and the more i cried, the harder it was for me to see. And then I crashed my car, into a glass wall, after swerving around a turn that was blinding.
And now in this glass, much like a window, i see me, and visions of my visions dying.
So I didn't know what elseto do,
but go back to the last place that i felt safe, and come right back to you..."
And the man said,"Well, that's quite a story, you went for quite a ride.
And i know you forgot my directions, but you also missed the signs....
they were posted along the road, for the both of you to see,
they read Wrong Way, Dead end ahead, seems like you both forgot where you were supposed to be.
And i'm sorry that you crashed your car, and nothing to do now but wait.
For he'll reach that dead end soon, and you'll be that roadside passenger he'll have to take.
And if he doesn't, or the wait grows too long,
you got to get back on the path,that you once let me lead, turn off the radio,and listen to your hearts song.
And i know you're hurt,and the scars of another's unlearned lessons are always tough to bear. But it's a long road to Heaven, and you gotta get there....."